Nov. 24th, 2008

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I need to speak with you and am lacking your new cell phone number (and imagine you may be busy this evening anyway). Please to be dropping me an IM when you get a chance, at your earliest convenience.

Lurves you!

AmberBob
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And now it's time (with a wink and a nod to HIMYM) for a game of "Have You Met Bob?"

I've gained a lot of relatively new friends recently, and there may be things you have been curious about, so here's a post to hopefully help you get to know me better.

My name is Amber, but my friends call me Bob or the hybrid AmberBob. I'll answer to any of the above, as well as Mom (but only to my 10 year old son) and a variety of character names at the renaissance festivals I participate in. More on those later.

I am a single, bisexual, kinky woman. I have tried quelling different aspects of myself in the past to make relationships work, and have made myself miserable in the process. I have therefore decided I will not entangle myself in relationships that can't accept these truths about me from the beginning. I could write a book on what I will and won't accept in relationships, but for this post it will suffice to say that all of my relationships, romantic or otherwise, must be built on a foundation of honesty, trust, and communication. I will settle for nothing less.

I am a writer. I write for myself, and for no other purpose than it is cathartic for me to do so. I have no desire, at this time in my life, to be a published author. I write for myself, and I share what I feel like sharing here. If something I write strikes a chord with you, I think that is all kinds of awesome, and I'd love to know about it. If you hate something I wrote and it filled you with such incredible loathing that you feel the need to tell me off before you flounce from my journal, well, I can handle it. I expect you to respect that my writings are my intellectual property. If you'd like to repost something that is unlocked, feel free, but I'd like credit. If you'd like to repost something that is under a friends lock, give me a buzz and I'll likely let you.

I am a single mother, to one person only. The only one who gets to call me mom is Smog. I am no one else's mother. I don't plan on having any more kids, so unless I someday marry someone who has children of their own, I have no desire to mother anyone else.

I am bipolar. Rather, I should say I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I was diagnosed when I was 14, and I've been dealing with it ever since. I am currently unmedicated, and for the most part doing incredibly well, though I do hit rough patches a couple of times a year. For me, the rough patches are worth having actual emotions the rest of the time, which I don't have when on medications. Usually, by the time I post about a rough patch on here, I'm hitting bottom and, amazingly, once I post here, once I vent that poison from myself, I rebound very quickly.

I am learning to deal with my eating disorder. I suffered from anorexia when younger, and have had issues with binge eating since the birth of my son. For the first time since I was a child, I'm starting to gain a healthy attitude towards food and exercise, and am actively working to lose weight and become healthier. I'm already feeling better, and starting to really look forward to my daily 1 1/2 (at least) and getting grumpy when I don't get it.

I am crafty. I enjoy crocheting obsene amounts of scarves, enjoy woodburning, painting random objects, and the idea of sewing if not the actual act.

I am a compulsive hoarder, though I am learning to let go of material objects. I'm a lousy housekeeper, though I don't mind doing the laundry. I hate vaccuuming, as the noise tends to trigger migraines. I'd really like to have a dishwasher.

I am intelligent. I hold a certificate in phlebotomy. I have worked in nuclear plants as a health physics technician. I have worked as a first responder. I can operate heavy equipment. I can make wine. I only hold a high school diploma, but my life experiences are varied. I firmly believe that anything I set my mind to, I can accomplish.

I am a hopeless romantic, and still believe that true love can exist. I have been blessed with love many times in my life, and though I have not married, I'm not adverse to the idea at some point, should I meet someone with whom I would like to make that commitment.

I am a Christian, but pagan friendly. I know what works for me, I respect that you know what works for you. I won't condemn you if you don't tar me with the same brush that many Christians get tarred with. My faith is very personal, and while I'm willing to talk about it with open minded individuals, I will not tolerate people who mock my faith. I am not overly religious and do not attend church on a regular basis, as I have not found a church home in my small town that meets my needs. I am raising my son to be an open minded Christian, and will respect his right to follow whatever faith he chooses as an adult.

I play a whore at renaissance festivals, which is a great amount of fun and a great amount of work. This does not mean I will sleep with you. Yes, I'm aware that I have large breasts. I grew them myself. I use them to my advantage. I carry them around when I am not strapped into a bodice. The bodice is far more comfortable than normal clothes. Yes, really.

I love hot baths, warm fires, and fluffy blankets. I love kisses, all kinds, from the cheek kisses you give friends to the first tentative kiss of a relationship to the passionate, barely restrained, up against the wall kisses. I don't take any kiss for granted. I love laughing with my son, deep roll-on-the-floor kind of laughs. I love other people's pets. I love late night conversations and books you can't put down to go to sleep. I love horror movies, chick flicks, and Disney. I love camping but not fishing, swimming but not hair dryers, and the moments of silence when you can look in someone's eyes and know exactly what they are thinking. I love stripey socks and red lips. I love long hair and short nails on myself. I love dancing with a partner who knows how. I love cold iced tea on a hot day. I love canoeing and rafting and would like to do even more of them. I love singing along with the radio at the top of my lungs and singing in the shower. I love finding new things and people to love, and I will not apologize for loving anything or anyone that I love, ever.

Is there more to me than this? Certainly. I always welcome questions, and will answer most anything asked, as my life is a pretty open book. I promise to treat even the most obvious question with as much grace as I have in me.
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One night only!

I'm going to KC tomorrow night!

W00T!!!

RockBand, here I come!

*does happy dance and goes to bed to get a good night's sleep*

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